The Competition is Stiff

I consider waxing as one of my biggest luxuries.

I love the way waxing makes me feel clean.

I also cherish my conversations with the person who do the waxing for me.

"The competition is stiff."

This is what she told me because she noticed that I was gaining weight.

The conversation stemmed from women who cares not if the men are married. Women who prey on married men driven perhaps by the principle that "madaling hulihin ang nakatali na."

And we notice that these women are relatively easy to the eyes.

Truth be told I never defined my existence with the way I look. I did not write in my goals though that I should become frumpy and ugly.

The conversation made me realize that taking care of one's self should not be done only when inspired or when there is a party coming. It should be a daily habit.

Thus another set of resolutions.

1. Flawless skin. I am not really kin on having very fair skin. What I really want is a complexion similar to Halle Berry's. Bronzed, even and flawless skin. 

  I stumbled on this site. 

It is all about having fair skin but I am pretty sure it applies to flawless skin as well considering how blotchy and uneven my skin is. Thirty two years of neglect is already showing.

 2. I have decided to take care of my mental and emotional well being as well. This means meet friends, relatives and family more often. Maintain a daily journal. If need be, see a professional.

3. I have always believe that with God nothing is impossible and prayers can protect me and my family from harm (mean people and bad decisions included :) ). 

I will be starting my weekly sambayang (equivalent to attending mass) next Friday. We went to Malisbong last Friday to pray and I was talking to Bai Nor while the ceremony was on-going. I found out later that it was strictly prohibited. A girl also touched a portion of my hair to arrange it so that it would not show. Hair which is aurat is not supposed to show when inside the mosque.  

I will also go back to my/our regular study of Islam.

4. I started moving again last night. Physical exertion always helps me in dealing with my temper and processing all the thoughts in my mind. 

I have decided to do all this because the competition is stiff. There will always be women who were not raised well or in such deep emotional mess they will not blink on trying to mess up anyone's marriage. Nor is my husband made of steel. 

Hopefully with a strong mind, a healthy body and the grace of Allah we can make our marriage a relatively better one.