Insanity Is My Only Means Of Relaxation

I am relatively back to normal.

My moods are stable.

My sense of responsibility in sync. :)

A lot of responsibilities to deal with. A lot of bills to pay.

I am overwhelmed. Managing a household. Sticking to the budget. Paying debts. Organizing my practice. Doing well on the radio show. Making Point of Law, both on the production side and the marketing side a success is challenging. Making regular entries on my blog is no longer a habit which I must go back to. Both in the law blog and the mememe blog. Writing a sensible entry in the Sarangani Journal is hard too. :)

But Allah is great and he will provide.

For the past ten days I quarreled with my husband. Up to a point that the issue of divorce was raised. I said a lot of hurtful words. He said a lot of hurtful words. In the end we relatively made up. 

Things are no longer the same. Or maybe we are not just back to normal. But I realized that my husband is me. We are one person. Two entities but one person. And when I hurt him and he hurts me we are just hurting ourselves.

When all is said and done a couple is supposed to augment each others inadequacies and not pester one another because of it.

Alvin and I have a lot of challenges. His inability to verbally communicate with me. My inability to understand him. Our cultural and religious upbringing are different.  Our intellectual gap. Our values.

Magnified by the fact that we are faced with tons of debt due to the wedding, our existing debts before the marriage, our lifestyle and my lack of ability to implement a budget and a savings plan.

All these we have to overcome in order to make our marriage work.

We will be married for a year two months from now. I hope are marriage will last a lifetime.

This would only happen though if we face our problems head-on.

Save. Budget. Pay debts. Place our money where returns are sure.

The Show is costing us money but with proper production and marketing it could be an IGP.

The seminar is an Income Generating Project. I need to market it to high heavens. :)

When all is done and said I just need to be consistent and consult with my husband always.